kandi
I wanted to try something new so i could just say what's on my mind. My friend suggested this site so here I am. I live in San Diego and I love it!
Friday, December 14, 2012
I love you
Monday, July 30, 2012
How do you know when to let go?
This person that is on mind, it's hard for me to let him go and i have no clue why.. we dated over a year ago and I havent seen him sense. It's not that I'm in love with him, because that fact is that I'm not sure that ever was. Maybe i need closure, maybe it's the idea of him that keeps me holding on. We started texting again in June and talking about wanting to be together, the thing is he's in another state at the moment and has a girlfriend that he says the situation is difficult .i know I'm the fool for getting my hopes up but it's him i can't help myself i want to believe that there could be a future for us. I want to see what it is that i have missed there past 16 months. I know he will never fully be mine as long as hes with her but i guess i can deal with it because he's so far away. He's the reason i havent been able to fully open up and be with some one else... half me wants to move on and the other half of me wants to wait for him when he gets back from deployment and i will fully have a chance... hmm
Saturday, December 31, 2011
just another day
Thursday, December 29, 2011
First time...
I have had a lot of random things on my mind lately, so much in fact it has been keeping me up at night. That's a problem for me, for the simple fact that I love my sleep.
I hate the fact that in order to fall in love you have to let your walls down, but in order to not get heart broken you have to keep them up. It just so happens the one time I consider letting down my walls, it's with someone who has still has their walls up. I don't know if I want to wait around for them to go down, but if I did so it could be worth it, right? On the other hand I really enjoy being single!
If I stay single I won't have anything to hold me back from going to Hawaii for a while which would be awesome, I am in need of a change. I am looking forward to taking a break before I go back to school to get my BA.
That's the other thing I have no clue where and what I want to get my BA in. My AA is in visual communications, where the hell can that transfer? I could just stay at ITT but I don't know if I want to? ugh growing up is so not fun.